I should have known that everyone is full of crap. Of course before Lucy got here everyone reassured me that things wouldn't change. I knew better. Even though I knew they were blowing smoke up my ass it still stings. I hate seeing that people are out at dinners together and no one thought I would be interested in going. Ben is in Georgia for three weeks with the car leaving Lucy and I to hang out in the house all day for three weeks. I get that people don't want to be hanging out with a baby all the time....I really do, but it still hurts my feelings. A lot.
Speaking of Ben being in Georgia for three weeks. It's pretty much killing me. Not only is my best friend gone, I have no way to get around. I'm constantly relying on people doing me favors and favors are pretty hard to come by these days. I guess I didn't realize how much I needed him around, or how much I relied on him for pretty much everything. Don't get me wrong, Lucy and I are doing just fine without him. I'm in no way just laying around crying, but there is definitely a part of me missing. Lucy can obviously tell that he's gone. She gets really excited when she sees him on Skype. It makes me happy to see her react to him like that.
Aside from feeling left behind by my friends, life is pretty awesome. I love waking up to Lucy's face. I enjoy spending every day with her. Having the weeks off from work has been really good. I can't imagine when I have to put her in daycare. It's definitely something I hope we can avoid. I don't want to miss out on all the cool stuff she does. My mom and grandma are coming to visit next week so there is lots of cleaning to be done. I guess that's how I'll spend my night. Not like there's much else going on for me....
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